I seem to be of two minds, if not three or four. Sometimes the noise seems to be relentless. Seeing multiple points of view and having multiple points of view is very taxing. I don't think it should be so hard to stay focused on one thing but for some reason it always is. Is this the normal state of being, or is it a result of past existences bleeding through? The overwhelming desire to pick up the sword is only equaled by the overwhelming desire to pick up a pen. The desire to protect and fight equaled by the desire to assist and heal. Why two minds, why isn't one path clearly brighter than the other? Why the constant internal debate, dialogue, struggle? Is this is why people engage in outrageous activities, to drown out out, to minimize, to quell the mental chatter? Is this all really me or is my mind an antenna for entities around me? And what exactly is me? Am I one mind, multiple minds from multiple points in history? Is my brain really just an antenna?
At this point I am not so much looking for peace, as I am looking for clarity and focus.
Does this make any sense to you?
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