Why?

Why has it been 10 months? 10 months, maybe a little more, since my last posting. More to the point, why has it been, I don't even know how long, since I've even thought about it? I took a retreat just a week or so after my last posting and only now I realize that I never wrote about it here. I have been writing in journals since then, but it's still interesting how easily something can be put out of mind. This last year has been filled with reading other peoples words, thinking about possible future directions, internal battles between the two wolves that live within. It seems that I've been on a journey that for all intents and purposes would require me to limit myself to one direction. I'm sure that I've heard that from others to some extent, but I suspect that mostly it's self-imposed. And probably self-imposed because of a believe that if I were to direct all my energy towards one decision, one path, one future, that I would have the highest chance for success. And I'll go out on a limb here and say that by most success I probably mean money and stability. It is interesting that intellectually I understand how important stability of money can be but that emotionally I am prepared to do without or cut back whatever is necessary to move into a direction that is more fulfilling. During my meditation yesterday two thoughts kept returning to me that are probably not unrelated.
First, the fact that I should dust off my old hypnotherapy textbooks and coursework and start practicing on as many people as possible. Second, to focus on doing the most meaningful work for people, delivering some service of value to their life, being relevant and doing work that produces meaningful outcomes.
I remember thinking and saying in the past of my technology practice that I love the tech and love working with the clients, but we' re not making a significant difference in anyone's life, much less saving anyone's life.
So the thought today is why must I choose one path, one future, one vision? Why can't I pursue multiple avenues? why shouldn't I pursue multiple avenues?

My focus this year has been on training for and developing my executive coaching and business consulting practices (along with officiating weddings). Almost to the exclusion of dealing with any technology. I'm not going to lie here, I do miss the tech and I do miss opening boxes of new gear. But, the people, their issues, their challenges, their healing and progress, are really what I want to focus on. What I am drawn to focus on.
What do you think?